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    Post by Mako Fujita Fri May 17, 2019 10:01 am

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    Name: Mako (Otsutsuki) Fujita
    Age: 19
    Gender: Male
    Village: Kumogakure no Sato
    Rank: Genin
    Title: N/A

    Clan: Otsutsuki
    Bloodline: Rin'negan (Preta Path)
    Element(s): N/A
    Skill(s): Bloodline, Chemistry, Bukijutsu

    Stats

    • Strength: D
    • Constitution: D
    • Stamina: D
    • Speed: D
    • Coordination: D
    • Intelligence: D
    • Perception: D


    Unique Abilities:

    Natural Chemist: Mako has always been weak, and has been forced to use his mind to survive instead. This has caused him to develop chemicals he normally would never be capable of. Mako is able to create chemicals one rank higher than he'd normally be able to, but in return, their countdowns, or cooldowns, are increased by 50%.

    One-Handed Seals: Thanks to his bloodline and heritage, Mako holds a naturally high aptitude for chakra control. This allows him to perform hand-seals with one hand in exchange for lowering his coordination by one tier for those handseals.

    High-Speed Learning: Mako is capable of learning things at incredibly high speeds, this being a mixture of his adept mind and constant need to progress and increase his own arsenal in any way possible. Any techniques he makes himself have their word count reduced by 50%, any techniques he learns that are not of his own making have their cost increased by 50%.

    Desperate Survival: Mako refuses to die, refuses to give in and just let someone roll him over. This has been what has driven him to the point he is at now mentally, and it won't be going away, ever. Whenever Mako hits 30 or less chakra, he regenerates 50% of his total chakra pool instantly in return for suffering the "Exhaustion" effect doubled for the remainder of the thread or until enough IC time has passed for the effect to be removed naturally, as per normal.

    Appearance: Mako is what many would consider being quite an attractive young man, a "prettyboy" by many standards. His physical frame is lithe but broad. Mako is surprisingly tall with a relatively well-built layer of muscle overlaying his frame, showing an athletic and lean build befitting someone who prefers dancing circles around their opponents from a distance over raw physical power. Despite his physical size, the dimensions of his hands and feet as well as his general wingspan, are all about the correct size for his body. Unlike others of his height who tend to have long arms, with large hands and feet.

    His skin is flawless, without blemish or scar due to his herritage, being a nearly porcelain white that catches many eyes in contrast with his physique and facial structure. His face contains a combination of wide cheek cheekbones, that are well framed by a surprisingly strong, pointed jawline, and an averagely sized forehead. His lips are slim, and barely noticeable with slight pink coloring barely separating them from the rest of his pale skin. However despite this, they match well with the slim, small, and slightly pointed nose, the combination adding a slight effeminate tone to his facial features.

    Slim black eyebrows decorate the skin above narrow light grey eyes that have a constant gleam of curiosity and awareness of his surroundings. A stark contrast to this being Mako's facial expression, which tends to be incredibly blank, calm and controlled lacking real emotional or physical response to others through his emotional conditioning. His pitch black silky hair has been trimmed to maintain a length of several inches on the top of his head and bangs, with the hair slowly fading and growing shorter as it gets to the back of his neck, and sideburns where the hair is maintained a constant centimeter in length. His face is kept clean shaved, mostly due to his inability to grow proper facial hair. Barely managed to grow a proper goatee, let alone a beard. Generally, his hair is worn slicked back neatly, or in a bedhead fashion depending on the time of day, and if he's actually slept yet.

    The only other notable aspect of Mako would be the way he holds himself, and his voice. His posture and gait haven't changed much since his childhood while sitting or standing he tends to be incredibly lax. Holding himself with a calm confidence, but with a constant level of distrust to his surroundings. Generally, while seated his posture is straight and relaxed, if leaned over with his chin in his palm, or his fingers intertwined in his lap. Matching his relaxed, confident gait his voice remains mellow and relaxed, though the emotions and tones that do ring from his voice tend to be heavily diluted, and infused with a fair amount of sarcasm or cynicism.

    History: To start our story for Mako, one must go back a bit before his birth. Mako's family, the Fujita, were a relatively wealthy family of merchants in the upper districts of Kumogakure with strong connections to the Kaguya due to their diluted blood connecting them to the ancient Otsutsuki Clan. Though not quite nobles, they lived a relatively rich lifestyle and enjoyed many things that others would never taste in their lives. However, this lifestyle began to slowly shift as their specialty goods were outpaced by another business, and as such, their worlds began to slowly fall apart. Mako's mother and father were married via an arrangement between families, there was no love between them, though it wasn't as though they hated one another either. As the stress began to pile up, however, it became more and more clear that his father was not prepared to deal with the fall of the business, having been raised with money and never having gone without it, he had only ever known how to try and "maintain the ship" so to speak. Never how to "save a sinking ship".

    Due to this, when the business began to sink, he was desperate for a reason as to why thinking that he could have done no wrong. From this line of thought, he managed a single connection the family business began to fail when his wife had become with child. This, became his reason. The reason that his business was failing, the reason his wife looked at him with such distaste, the reason his servants abandoned him, everything that went wrong became the unborn child's fault. He was cursed, though he never said it, not until the day Mako was born and with his birth came the death of his mother. Though he did not grieve to heavily, his father did see this as a clarification that he had been right. Without anyone to tell him otherwise any longer, he named the boy "Mako" quite literally meaning "Cursed Child", and so began the steady fall of the family even further. For now that the man had a reason that was out of his control to fight against, he no longer even tried to fight. The business of the family fell within a few months and the savings lasted for a few short years.

    The family was forced to move to the slums within the land of lightning, and with that, came to the concept of Mako having to be "punished" for existing. Everything was the young child's fault, and now that they were in the slums, no one cared enough to intervene with the screams of the young boy every night beyond yelling to shut him up. The abuse started out weak, but as time passed and the father's frustrations grew, they escalated, his sadistic side causing them to rise even faster. Eventually, the boy was put through all forms of abuse from physical to sexual as the years went by, beaten, bruised, scar-covered and broken, Mako's personality was twisted into a self-loathing young boy that wanted nothing more than to die. But was held back by only fear of the unknown.

    Despite this fear, the thoughts lingered within his mind driving to levels of depression and suppressed emotion even further along than what he had initially suffered, Mako began to spend his time in the Rukongai slums desperately avoiding his father. Though he still had to return before night, he was able to at least escape the hellhole of his life for a few hours each day. It was during this time that Mako began to actually make acquaintances, the first being a young girl named Moriko who began to drag him into delivery jobs in order to ensure he got food. This meeting would be the first positive relationship that Mako had ever managed to acquire and the pair would begin to rapidly spend more and more time together.

    Eventually, this time would lead to Mako beginning to actually enjoy things, even if he refused to admit such. The resulting reaction from his father noticing him being slightly less beaten and broken leading to some of the worst abuse he had ever endured. Due to the physical damage, as well as the psychological abuse triggered by the sexual assault, Mako is pushed to his limit and begins to heavily contemplate suicide for the first time. This leads to him seeking out a large cliff near the edge of the slums, prepared to leap, his depression having finally beaten out his fear of death; until Moriko finds him having been concerned due to the fact he hadn't shown up for the job that morning. The result is her dragging him back, intending to hit him for being an "idiot" until seeing his new wounds from the damage he had suffered.

    This leads to a short discussion, in which Mako refuses to tell her what had happened and instead of rejecting him as the broken boy expects, she instead lets it go and forces him into a promise. To find something to live for, every day, since it was a promise to her, he had to hold it. This would be his first attempt at making a friend, as well as his first promise. The promise becomes Mako's psychological crutch and forces him to search for something to support his life, eventually leading him to find the sun's rising to be therapeutic. This would lead to him meeting his second friend, a young boy named Yuuta, as well as their first major meeting ending with Mako punching him out of a tree.

    Yuuta and Mako then begin to slowly bond, though its a twisted bond, Yuuta's brilliant kindness, and optimistic personality is something that Mako subconsciously envies as well as respects. Their friendship begins to steadily grow as the pair work together, Yuuta ensuring he ate, and watching him as much as he could and in return Mako "settling the debt" by watching over his friend and helping him as much as he could. This leads to the development of different jobs in order to help Yuuta's mother, Yuki, pay for food and other supplies for their home. Similarly, Mako developed an odd "big sister" relationship with Yuki, it is during this point where Mako is beginning to search out possible options for getting more food and the bare concepts of trying to escape his father are beginning to manifest (though he is nowhere near ready to actually attempt such).

    During this time, Mako begins to resort to thievery once more in the hopes of obtaining food enough to properly grow and support himself during one of these attempts, Mako runs into a man named Murat, a teacher in the Slums. Their initial interactions are full of fear and hostility due to Mako's lack of trust, however, eventually, the man managed to earn a degree of his trust with an offered deal. Eventually, Murat takes him in and begins to teach him concepts of the mind how currency works, basics of law, bloodlines, writing, reading, and many more concepts that though Mako had a brief understanding of had never had a formal education of such. This understanding blooms into a relationship that Mako had never had, one of Teacher and Student, even if it was only for basic education and understanding.

    From this point, Mako begins to come to a degree of free thought and his desire to escape his father continued to grow. However, due to his own weakness and constant abuse (which was now escalating as if his father sensed that his "stress relief" was trying to escape him) Mako was unable to act on it. It was at this point, after a degree of hefty abuse due to his father and having limped away to collapse on the side of the road that he has a chance encounter with the full-fledged ninja of the small country named Zâbel Kohara. The woman heals him, as well as offers him an escape, out of a mixture of pity and a desire to ease her own soul and debt to her father, seeing herself in Mako to a lesser extent. Mako accepts the offer.

    For the next three months, Mako trains under Zâbel in secret. This training focused initially on simply easing his fear, however, as things progressed they finally began to move forward actively. Mako began to learn how to properly use his chakra, as well as began to learn how to fight, his education that Murat started, expanded upon in detail as Zâbel pooled her effort into helping him. Though he still suffered from his issues connecting to his fear, Mako began to move forward as a person as well as began taking his first steps on the road to becoming a Ninja himself.

    It is after this period that Mako leaves the Kohara compound where he was living with his teacher, to instead return to the slums to teach Yuuta what he had learned as well as better himself even further hoping that with his friends (though he refused to see him as such) help, he may manage to control the terror that constantly controlled all of his actions. During this time, he would meet a man named Hitsuyona during his personal training time, and the two would bond to a degree initially as teacher and student, before Mako quickly began to overtake the man's lessons and focus instead on sparring and training with him as well as introducing him to the Shinigami in order to help him join the Academy.

    Finally, Mako begins to control his fear enough so that he is able to properly fight, even if in a delayed a bit of a panicked fashion, however, he is still haunted by his "fear". It is at this point that Mako, as a child fights his first opponent, a bear alongside Yuuta, the pair killing it. After this point, Mako begins to hear whispers in his dreams telling him that if he wished to control his fear, he needed to "kill his weakness". These dreams haunt him, unable to properly decipher them as the years tick away, until finally, Yuuta, Moriko, and he are all prepared to begin their steps into becoming true ninja.

    Mako, as a final act in the slums finally makes the connection of what his subconscious and dreams were telling him, the source of his "fear". With this realization, he decides that it was time for him to face his father that he had abandoned three years prior. The source of all fear and abuse in his life. Mako was prepared for the worst, braced for suffering and ready to fight an opponent that in his mind stood as a Titan, ruling over his life with an iron fist and immeasurable power, for the first time, facing his fear as he entered his old home. Instead, the man that he found was nothing like he envisioned in his mind's eyes. Broken, battered, skin and bones, only one word came to Mako's mind as he stared at his father who began ranting about him "finally crawling back".

    "Pathetic."

    The words left his mouth, and they were directed at himself just as much as the man before him. The realization and understanding came that his father had never been some incredibly strong being. Only one thing had been strong and that had been his fear. Terror, nurtured by his environment the whispers filled his mind once more. A single stroke of his blade ended the man's pathetic life, without hesitation, or remorse he painted the inside of his old home red with his own father's blood. This, was his final act within the slums and as he met his friends outside the gates and prepared for his new life, he never once regretted his decision, seeing the place as worthless to him. A shell that his former self had been caged within, not realizing how fragile thin that shell that had "trapped" him, had truly been.

    Free, Mako began his new life within the small country. With goals for a future, and a hunger for power so he could never feel that fear, that pain, again.

    Personality: The best term that could be used to describe Mako would be "Borderline Sociopathic" or "Emotionally Broken". This is not to be confused with calling the young man a psychopath, though there are certainly a few traits that could lead one toward that thought process as well. Due to his abusive past, and the twisted manner in which he has been forced to adapt, topped off with the fact his "natural" personality was never that great to begin with, many could understand and see why Mako would have a bit of a troubling mindset. When it comes down to it, Mako is ruled by the one thing he has managed to find hold itself true in the chaotic, unfair, and unforgiving world around him: and that is logic.

    A mindset that developed due to his abuse having shut him out of normal relationships and social understanding this word became the basis for all of his natural mental and emotional defenses. Love became something that was illogical, as did anything that he had never had believing they opened doors only so that they could be shut in your face once more. Due to his inability to cope with the concept of true kindness, love, or other positive emotions not having some sort of benefit for the other party beyond returning that love. Mako has applied this "logical" thought process to everything and is his primary coping and understanding mechanism when it comes to other people.

    This does not mean the logic that normal people use, such as "This man has been my friend for years, he wouldn't betray me," but instead in the purest essence of the word, twisted and corrupted through his own life lessons. Instead, Mako is the type of individual to apply numerical value or "deal-based" value to everything, if someone were to offer him "kindness", then there had to be a reason that could make "logical" sense to him. If they wanted to train him, then they wanted to have him owe them so that when he became stronger they could call on him to do something that they were unable to do in the future. If they wanted to give him food, then they wanted him indebted to them so that they could use him for their own means. The list continued.

    When it comes to the concepts of love, kindness, or selflessness Mako believes them to quite simply, not exist. This is in part, not so much from the fact he cannot himself be kind but instead that he has become so jaded, and pained, that this "debt" concept is the only way he is able to process kindness. Giving, or accepting it. Even if he himself does a kindness for another he refuses to admit such a thing, even to himself, and instead simply makes it a "debt" that he entirely "expects them to pay back", and yet often will never call on it. Hiding this fact by simply saying that he will only call on the debt when he is in dire need, so as to not "waste a potential benefit". As such, it's not that Mako is void of kindness or love himself. Simply that he doesn't understand how to properly accept, or give it due to how he was treated during his key developmental stages in life.

    Even when faced with an individual that should make him question these aspects, such as Yuuta Yasui, Mako simply considers it something such as "Altruism" and as such is not "selflessness" but instead "selfishness" because the individual feels good about themselves by doing good and being kind. This cynical outlook on the world is reflected in everything he does. Be it in the shape of something as simple as casual conversation, or more important decision making and even combat or and missions. Viewing the world, quite often, not in a state of "Black and White" or in a state of "Different Colors" but instead in a view that quite simply, everything is grey. Morals, Laws, Emotions, Bonds all of it is meaningless in the end, a means to an end due to how he processes things, and the fact he has not been forced to confront the feelings he refuses to admit he has.

    Due to this line of thought, his loyalties are limited to only two things, one of which he is conscious of and fully admits, his own survival due to his own natural instincts. The other loyalty being something he refuses to admit, even to himself, the lives of the few people he calls "Allies" vocally, and "Friends" subconsciously. When it comes to his views on the world, these loyalties are the only things that drive his every action and as such, he has no interest in such concepts as honor, ethics, or moral codes. If he has a supposed loyalty to anything beyond his subconscious loyalty to friends or his own survival, it's only so that he can maximize the chance of survival for one of his two true "loyalties". If he is a loyal, outstanding member of a village or group, it's not because he believes in them or their values. Instead, it's because they offer him the most efficient way to gain strength and increase his own (or his friends) survival rate.

    When it comes to his decision making, any means, justify the ends. Not out of some twisted ideal of justice or doing the right thing, but simply because he doesn't care about any number of things he must sacrifice in order to protect himself or those around him he actually cares about.

    The second trail of thought that stems from this broken mindset and the second largest part of his personality, is his absolute and total terror of the world, and more importantly, of death itself. Mako is ruled by absolute terror manifested from the abuse of his past as a coping mechanism in order to survive and then honed into a deadly weapon as the years passed and he learned to properly control it. Though he no longer has a fear of pain due to his immense pain tolerance meaning he barely even feels it any longer, he does fear the concept of death itself, well beyond what others would dub normal. Fearing the end is a natural line of thought, a simple and effective survival instinct that all living creatures have to some degree. However, Mako's goes beyond simple fear and straight into absolute terror, to the point that he never stops thinking about the ways even the most simple situation can go wrong.

    If a normal person entered a possible situation that could end in them sustaining damage, or dying, then they would automatically begin contemplating ways to avoid potential dangers. But if they were simply walking down the street, then such thoughts wouldn't enter their mind. However, Mako does think of such things, no matter where he may be. His mind is constantly working on how any situation, at any point, could go wrong and how to make that situation disappear before it happened, as well as how to deal with it should it happen anyway. This terror is what has driven him to constantly examine the world with a critical eye. Be it a simple conversation or interaction, or wandering an area. It doesn't matter how, or when it happens. Mako is convinced that no matter how slim the chance of something going wrong may be: it will happen, at some point. As such he is convinced that he must be prepared for everything that comes to mind, no matter how unlikely it may seem.

    The final noteworthy trait of Mako's mind stems from a side of himself that he tends to keep locked away in the shape of his absolute hatred. Not only of the world, but of himself. His terror, his inability to properly understand other people, his depression, weakness, and more. All these emotions, bottled up and shoved away on a shelf in the back of his mind. Leaving it to boil over and mix with his natural sadistic tendencies, feeling pleasure in making others suffer, to make them feel a taste of what he has endured all his life, out of a deep seeded need to try and make others understand him. This small section of his mind is in many ways, insane. Thinking that by harming others, by making them suffer, they understand some part of him which makes him happy, leading to his sadistic tendencies increasing. This hatred, and wrath is very much the "caged" part of his mind, and as such is the strongest aspect of his subconscious that "breaks free" when he is angered, or excited to the correct degree.

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    Post by Shimiko Chinoike Sat May 18, 2019 10:47 pm

    Mako Fujita wrote:
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    Name: Mako (Otsutsuki) Fujita
    Age: 19
    Gender: Male
    Village: Kumogakure no Sato
    Rank: Genin
    Title: N/A

    Clan: Otsutsuki
    Bloodline: Rin'negan (Preta Path)
    Element(s): N/A
    Skill(s): Bloodline, Chemistry, Bukijutsu

    Stats

    • Strength: D
    • Constitution: D
    • Stamina: D
    • Speed: D
    • Coordination: D
    • Intelligence: D
    • Perception: D


    Unique Abilities:

    Natural Chemist: Mako has always been weak, and has been forced to use his mind to survive instead. This has caused him to develop chemicals he normally would never be capable of. Mako is able to create chemicals one rank higher than he'd normally be able to, but in return, their countdowns, or cooldowns, are increased by 50%.

    One-Handed Seals: Thanks to his bloodline and heritage, Mako holds a naturally high aptitude for chakra control. This allows him to perform hand-seals with one hand in exchange for lowering his coordination by one tier for those handseals.

    High-Speed Learning: Mako is capable of learning things at incredibly high speeds, this being a mixture of his adept mind and constant need to progress and increase his own arsenal in any way possible. Any techniques he makes himself have their word count reduced by 50%, any techniques he learns that are not of his own making have their cost increased by 50%.

    Desperate Survival: Mako refuses to die, refuses to give in and just let someone roll him over. This has been what has driven him to the point he is at now mentally, and it won't be going away, ever. Whenever Mako hits 30 or less chakra, he regenerates 50% of his total chakra pool instantly in return for suffering the "Exhaustion" effect doubled for the remainder of the thread or until enough IC time has passed for the effect to be removed naturally, as per normal.

    Appearance: Mako is what many would consider being quite an attractive young man, a "prettyboy" by many standards. His physical frame is lithe but broad. Mako is surprisingly tall with a relatively well-built layer of muscle overlaying his frame, showing an athletic and lean build befitting someone who prefers dancing circles around their opponents from a distance over raw physical power. Despite his physical size, the dimensions of his hands and feet as well as his general wingspan, are all about the correct size for his body. Unlike others of his height who tend to have long arms, with large hands and feet.

    His skin is flawless, without blemish or scar due to his herritage, being a nearly porcelain white that catches many eyes in contrast with his physique and facial structure. His face contains a combination of wide cheek cheekbones, that are well framed by a surprisingly strong, pointed jawline, and an averagely sized forehead. His lips are slim, and barely noticeable with slight pink coloring barely separating them from the rest of his pale skin. However despite this, they match well with the slim, small, and slightly pointed nose, the combination adding a slight effeminate tone to his facial features.

    Slim black eyebrows decorate the skin above narrow light grey eyes that have a constant gleam of curiosity and awareness of his surroundings. A stark contrast to this being Mako's facial expression, which tends to be incredibly blank, calm and controlled lacking real emotional or physical response to others through his emotional conditioning. His pitch black silky hair has been trimmed to maintain a length of several inches on the top of his head and bangs, with the hair slowly fading and growing shorter as it gets to the back of his neck, and sideburns where the hair is maintained a constant centimeter in length. His face is kept clean shaved, mostly due to his inability to grow proper facial hair. Barely managed to grow a proper goatee, let alone a beard. Generally, his hair is worn slicked back neatly, or in a bedhead fashion depending on the time of day, and if he's actually slept yet.

    The only other notable aspect of Mako would be the way he holds himself, and his voice. His posture and gait haven't changed much since his childhood while sitting or standing he tends to be incredibly lax. Holding himself with a calm confidence, but with a constant level of distrust to his surroundings. Generally, while seated his posture is straight and relaxed, if leaned over with his chin in his palm, or his fingers intertwined in his lap. Matching his relaxed, confident gait his voice remains mellow and relaxed, though the emotions and tones that do ring from his voice tend to be heavily diluted, and infused with a fair amount of sarcasm or cynicism.

    History: To start our story for Mako, one must go back a bit before his birth. Mako's family, the Fujita, were a relatively wealthy family of merchants in the upper districts of Kumogakure with strong connections to the Kaguya due to their diluted blood connecting them to the ancient Otsutsuki Clan. Though not quite nobles, they lived a relatively rich lifestyle and enjoyed many things that others would never taste in their lives. However, this lifestyle began to slowly shift as their specialty goods were outpaced by another business, and as such, their worlds began to slowly fall apart. Mako's mother and father were married via an arrangement between families, there was no love between them, though it wasn't as though they hated one another either. As the stress began to pile up, however, it became more and more clear that his father was not prepared to deal with the fall of the business, having been raised with money and never having gone without it, he had only ever known how to try and "maintain the ship" so to speak. Never how to "save a sinking ship".

    Due to this, when the business began to sink, he was desperate for a reason as to why thinking that he could have done no wrong. From this line of thought, he managed a single connection the family business began to fail when his wife had become with child. This, became his reason. The reason that his business was failing, the reason his wife looked at him with such distaste, the reason his servants abandoned him, everything that went wrong became the unborn child's fault. He was cursed, though he never said it, not until the day Mako was born and with his birth came the death of his mother. Though he did not grieve to heavily, his father did see this as a clarification that he had been right. Without anyone to tell him otherwise any longer, he named the boy "Mako" quite literally meaning "Cursed Child", and so began the steady fall of the family even further. For now that the man had a reason that was out of his control to fight against, he no longer even tried to fight. The business of the family fell within a few months and the savings lasted for a few short years.

    The family was forced to move to the slums within the land of lightning, and with that, came to the concept of Mako having to be "punished" for existing. Everything was the young child's fault, and now that they were in the slums, no one cared enough to intervene with the screams of the young boy every night beyond yelling to shut him up. The abuse started out weak, but as time passed and the father's frustrations grew, they escalated, his sadistic side causing them to rise even faster. Eventually, the boy was put through all forms of abuse from physical to sexual as the years went by, beaten, bruised, scar-covered and broken, Mako's personality was twisted into a self-loathing young boy that wanted nothing more than to die. But was held back by only fear of the unknown.

    Despite this fear, the thoughts lingered within his mind driving to levels of depression and suppressed emotion even further along than what he had initially suffered, Mako began to spend his time in the Rukongai slums desperately avoiding his father. Though he still had to return before night, he was able to at least escape the hellhole of his life for a few hours each day. It was during this time that Mako began to actually make acquaintances, the first being a young girl named Moriko who began to drag him into delivery jobs in order to ensure he got food. This meeting would be the first positive relationship that Mako had ever managed to acquire and the pair would begin to rapidly spend more and more time together.

    Eventually, this time would lead to Mako beginning to actually enjoy things, even if he refused to admit such. The resulting reaction from his father noticing him being slightly less beaten and broken leading to some of the worst abuse he had ever endured. Due to the physical damage, as well as the psychological abuse triggered by the sexual assault, Mako is pushed to his limit and begins to heavily contemplate suicide for the first time. This leads to him seeking out a large cliff near the edge of the slums, prepared to leap, his depression having finally beaten out his fear of death; until Moriko finds him having been concerned due to the fact he hadn't shown up for the job that morning. The result is her dragging him back, intending to hit him for being an "idiot" until seeing his new wounds from the damage he had suffered.

    This leads to a short discussion, in which Mako refuses to tell her what had happened and instead of rejecting him as the broken boy expects, she instead lets it go and forces him into a promise. To find something to live for, every day, since it was a promise to her, he had to hold it. This would be his first attempt at making a friend, as well as his first promise. The promise becomes Mako's psychological crutch and forces him to search for something to support his life, eventually leading him to find the sun's rising to be therapeutic. This would lead to him meeting his second friend, a young boy named Yuuta, as well as their first major meeting ending with Mako punching him out of a tree.

    Yuuta and Mako then begin to slowly bond, though its a twisted bond, Yuuta's brilliant kindness, and optimistic personality is something that Mako subconsciously envies as well as respects. Their friendship begins to steadily grow as the pair work together, Yuuta ensuring he ate, and watching him as much as he could and in return Mako "settling the debt" by watching over his friend and helping him as much as he could. This leads to the development of different jobs in order to help Yuuta's mother, Yuki, pay for food and other supplies for their home. Similarly, Mako developed an odd "big sister" relationship with Yuki, it is during this point where Mako is beginning to search out possible options for getting more food and the bare concepts of trying to escape his father are beginning to manifest (though he is nowhere near ready to actually attempt such).

    During this time, Mako begins to resort to thievery once more in the hopes of obtaining food enough to properly grow and support himself during one of these attempts, Mako runs into a man named Murat, a teacher in the Slums. Their initial interactions are full of fear and hostility due to Mako's lack of trust, however, eventually, the man managed to earn a degree of his trust with an offered deal. Eventually, Murat takes him in and begins to teach him concepts of the mind how currency works, basics of law, bloodlines, writing, reading, and many more concepts that though Mako had a brief understanding of had never had a formal education of such. This understanding blooms into a relationship that Mako had never had, one of Teacher and Student, even if it was only for basic education and understanding.

    From this point, Mako begins to come to a degree of free thought and his desire to escape his father continued to grow. However, due to his own weakness and constant abuse (which was now escalating as if his father sensed that his "stress relief" was trying to escape him) Mako was unable to act on it. It was at this point, after a degree of hefty abuse due to his father and having limped away to collapse on the side of the road that he has a chance encounter with the full-fledged ninja of the small country named Zâbel Kohara. The woman heals him, as well as offers him an escape, out of a mixture of pity and a desire to ease her own soul and debt to her father, seeing herself in Mako to a lesser extent. Mako accepts the offer.

    For the next three months, Mako trains under Zâbel in secret. This training focused initially on simply easing his fear, however, as things progressed they finally began to move forward actively. Mako began to learn how to properly use his chakra, as well as began to learn how to fight, his education that Murat started, expanded upon in detail as Zâbel pooled her effort into helping him. Though he still suffered from his issues connecting to his fear, Mako began to move forward as a person as well as began taking his first steps on the road to becoming a Ninja himself.

    It is after this period that Mako leaves the Kohara compound where he was living with his teacher, to instead return to the slums to teach Yuuta what he had learned as well as better himself even further hoping that with his friends (though he refused to see him as such) help, he may manage to control the terror that constantly controlled all of his actions. During this time, he would meet a man named Hitsuyona during his personal training time, and the two would bond to a degree initially as teacher and student, before Mako quickly began to overtake the man's lessons and focus instead on sparring and training with him as well as introducing him to the Shinigami in order to help him join the Academy.

    Finally, Mako begins to control his fear enough so that he is able to properly fight, even if in a delayed a bit of a panicked fashion, however, he is still haunted by his "fear". It is at this point that Mako, as a child fights his first opponent, a bear alongside Yuuta, the pair killing it. After this point, Mako begins to hear whispers in his dreams telling him that if he wished to control his fear, he needed to "kill his weakness". These dreams haunt him, unable to properly decipher them as the years tick away, until finally, Yuuta, Moriko, and he are all prepared to begin their steps into becoming true ninja.

    Mako, as a final act in the slums finally makes the connection of what his subconscious and dreams were telling him, the source of his "fear". With this realization, he decides that it was time for him to face his father that he had abandoned three years prior. The source of all fear and abuse in his life. Mako was prepared for the worst, braced for suffering and ready to fight an opponent that in his mind stood as a Titan, ruling over his life with an iron fist and immeasurable power, for the first time, facing his fear as he entered his old home. Instead, the man that he found was nothing like he envisioned in his mind's eyes. Broken, battered, skin and bones, only one word came to Mako's mind as he stared at his father who began ranting about him "finally crawling back".

    "Pathetic."

    The words left his mouth, and they were directed at himself just as much as the man before him. The realization and understanding came that his father had never been some incredibly strong being. Only one thing had been strong and that had been his fear. Terror, nurtured by his environment the whispers filled his mind once more. A single stroke of his blade ended the man's pathetic life, without hesitation, or remorse he painted the inside of his old home red with his own father's blood. This, was his final act within the slums and as he met his friends outside the gates and prepared for his new life, he never once regretted his decision, seeing the place as worthless to him. A shell that his former self had been caged within, not realizing how fragile thin that shell that had "trapped" him, had truly been.

    Free, Mako began his new life within the small country. With goals for a future, and a hunger for power so he could never feel that fear, that pain, again.

    Personality: The best term that could be used to describe Mako would be "Borderline Sociopathic" or "Emotionally Broken". This is not to be confused with calling the young man a psychopath, though there are certainly a few traits that could lead one toward that thought process as well. Due to his abusive past, and the twisted manner in which he has been forced to adapt, topped off with the fact his "natural" personality was never that great to begin with, many could understand and see why Mako would have a bit of a troubling mindset. When it comes down to it, Mako is ruled by the one thing he has managed to find hold itself true in the chaotic, unfair, and unforgiving world around him: and that is logic.

    A mindset that developed due to his abuse having shut him out of normal relationships and social understanding this word became the basis for all of his natural mental and emotional defenses. Love became something that was illogical, as did anything that he had never had believing they opened doors only so that they could be shut in your face once more. Due to his inability to cope with the concept of true kindness, love, or other positive emotions not having some sort of benefit for the other party beyond returning that love. Mako has applied this "logical" thought process to everything and is his primary coping and understanding mechanism when it comes to other people.

    This does not mean the logic that normal people use, such as "This man has been my friend for years, he wouldn't betray me," but instead in the purest essence of the word, twisted and corrupted through his own life lessons. Instead, Mako is the type of individual to apply numerical value or "deal-based" value to everything, if someone were to offer him "kindness", then there had to be a reason that could make "logical" sense to him. If they wanted to train him, then they wanted to have him owe them so that when he became stronger they could call on him to do something that they were unable to do in the future. If they wanted to give him food, then they wanted him indebted to them so that they could use him for their own means. The list continued.

    When it comes to the concepts of love, kindness, or selflessness Mako believes them to quite simply, not exist. This is in part, not so much from the fact he cannot himself be kind but instead that he has become so jaded, and pained, that this "debt" concept is the only way he is able to process kindness. Giving, or accepting it. Even if he himself does a kindness for another he refuses to admit such a thing, even to himself, and instead simply makes it a "debt" that he entirely "expects them to pay back", and yet often will never call on it. Hiding this fact by simply saying that he will only call on the debt when he is in dire need, so as to not "waste a potential benefit". As such, it's not that Mako is void of kindness or love himself. Simply that he doesn't understand how to properly accept, or give it due to how he was treated during his key developmental stages in life.

    Even when faced with an individual that should make him question these aspects, such as Yuuta Yasui, Mako simply considers it something such as "Altruism" and as such is not "selflessness" but instead "selfishness" because the individual feels good about themselves by doing good and being kind. This cynical outlook on the world is reflected in everything he does. Be it in the shape of something as simple as casual conversation, or more important decision making and even combat or and missions. Viewing the world, quite often, not in a state of "Black and White" or in a state of "Different Colors" but instead in a view that quite simply, everything is grey. Morals, Laws, Emotions, Bonds all of it is meaningless in the end, a means to an end due to how he processes things, and the fact he has not been forced to confront the feelings he refuses to admit he has.

    Due to this line of thought, his loyalties are limited to only two things, one of which he is conscious of and fully admits, his own survival due to his own natural instincts. The other loyalty being something he refuses to admit, even to himself, the lives of the few people he calls "Allies" vocally, and "Friends" subconsciously. When it comes to his views on the world, these loyalties are the only things that drive his every action and as such, he has no interest in such concepts as honor, ethics, or moral codes. If he has a supposed loyalty to anything beyond his subconscious loyalty to friends or his own survival, it's only so that he can maximize the chance of survival for one of his two true "loyalties". If he is a loyal, outstanding member of a village or group, it's not because he believes in them or their values. Instead, it's because they offer him the most efficient way to gain strength and increase his own (or his friends) survival rate.

    When it comes to his decision making, any means, justify the ends. Not out of some twisted ideal of justice or doing the right thing, but simply because he doesn't care about any number of things he must sacrifice in order to protect himself or those around him he actually cares about.

    The second trail of thought that stems from this broken mindset and the second largest part of his personality, is his absolute and total terror of the world, and more importantly, of death itself. Mako is ruled by absolute terror manifested from the abuse of his past as a coping mechanism in order to survive and then honed into a deadly weapon as the years passed and he learned to properly control it. Though he no longer has a fear of pain due to his immense pain tolerance meaning he barely even feels it any longer, he does fear the concept of death itself, well beyond what others would dub normal. Fearing the end is a natural line of thought, a simple and effective survival instinct that all living creatures have to some degree. However, Mako's goes beyond simple fear and straight into absolute terror, to the point that he never stops thinking about the ways even the most simple situation can go wrong.

    If a normal person entered a possible situation that could end in them sustaining damage, or dying, then they would automatically begin contemplating ways to avoid potential dangers. But if they were simply walking down the street, then such thoughts wouldn't enter their mind. However, Mako does think of such things, no matter where he may be. His mind is constantly working on how any situation, at any point, could go wrong and how to make that situation disappear before it happened, as well as how to deal with it should it happen anyway. This terror is what has driven him to constantly examine the world with a critical eye. Be it a simple conversation or interaction, or wandering an area. It doesn't matter how, or when it happens. Mako is convinced that no matter how slim the chance of something going wrong may be: it will happen, at some point. As such he is convinced that he must be prepared for everything that comes to mind, no matter how unlikely it may seem.

    The final noteworthy trait of Mako's mind stems from a side of himself that he tends to keep locked away in the shape of his absolute hatred. Not only of the world, but of himself. His terror, his inability to properly understand other people, his depression, weakness, and more. All these emotions, bottled up and shoved away on a shelf in the back of his mind. Leaving it to boil over and mix with his natural sadistic tendencies, feeling pleasure in making others suffer, to make them feel a taste of what he has endured all his life, out of a deep seeded need to try and make others understand him. This small section of his mind is in many ways, insane. Thinking that by harming others, by making them suffer, they understand some part of him which makes him happy, leading to his sadistic tendencies increasing. This hatred, and wrath is very much the "caged" part of his mind, and as such is the strongest aspect of his subconscious that "breaks free" when he is angered, or excited to the correct degree.

    Roleplay Sample: See any of Satori's posts, really.

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