Nodding his head in acknowledgement of her words, he would continue. “Ryuko-sensei did so much for me. In our first meeting as a team she decided I was Chunin level on the spot. She even gave me access to some of the villages most prized techniques. That aura you felt around me before, is one of them. I worked to prove worthy of that trust. I failed it, when I was assigned a mission to exterminate a vicious bandit group targeting people traveling to the Heavenly Emporium.” He would say, naming the neutral ground for all villages during the war. It was well known enough as it was told to all shinobi who left on missions so that if they needed it, they might find safe harbor there if worse came to worst.
“My mission partner there was a small woman named Sayuri, I say small, but she was actually about 5’3. Had long blonde hair, and piercing sapphire blue eyes. She wore a dress of all things and went around barefoot. When the mission started she was quiet and shy, even writing my name on a piece of paper to ask if it was me, rather than asking directly. I flew us to our target location, an old fort apparently. Blew down the gates and entire outer wall..and...and..proceeded to become a monster..” He would say, taking another pull from his flask before taking a deep breath. “I started killing bandits left and right, quick things, although some were brutal in how they ended up. The kind of thing you don’t really avoid sometimes. I’m ashamed to admit I’ve always enjoyed the act of killing. Proving once and for all that you’re the stronger individual has a certain primal feel to it. But I’ve only ever let that side out on missions where I’m specifically ordered to kill the target.” He would continue, pausing but not taking a drink this time.
“Sayuri however, loved to torture, loved to murder in the most vicious ways possible. I watched her carve the face off one bandit, and try to stick it on another that she had captured. When that failed she stuffed the face into his mouth and killed him. She stabbed another in the neck and licked the wound, loving the taste of blood and slowly, ever so slowly she began to make me want to torture my targets too. To draw out their deaths. I slowly inched closer to the edge and finally broke, and when I did so I was rewarded. My torturing and slaughtering of men and women, who were destined to die at that point anyway, was rewarded. We were intimate, right there, against the keep wall with other bandits frozen in terror and forced to watch. The slaughtering continued on after that..but..but that horrible day, has haunted me.” He would say, a ghastly look in his eyes as he saw over and over again the acts he had done that day. None of them were even considered illegal. “I regret that day so much, and I see her every now and then. A vivid mental flash to sapphire eyes, blonde hair, smiling lips covered with blood. It keeps me awake at night. She awoke something far more primal in me, bestial, and I have to fight to keep it under control when I potentially kill someone.” He would say, finishing that part of the tale as he took another pull and sighed. “Then there was the Battle of Meijing..” He would say, trailing off as he waited to ensure she was still with him.
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